While scrolling down to my facebook homepage today, I saw a friend of mine “liked this photo” thing.
The photograph was somebody too close to me in the past,and now as you can guess,we’re not even formal friends on facebook.
At once,I felt a little sad about how we just lost touch and then never got back. Then,I felt sad about why we actually split up. And suddenly,I had this cyclone of memories inside my brain. Every single thing somehow I could visualize in front of eyes. *feeling even more sad*
But this very time,I can’t actually figure out who to blame. Blame him? For not being in touch? Or blame myself? For being egoistic enough not to understand that if I wanted,we could still be how we used to be!
Just then,I opened all the past conversations in the mail,inbox,everywhere,and there wasn’t a single bitter thing that could hurt me. That means,nothing was as bad as for us to stop talking! To be strangers,to be “not bothering about other”.
I miss him. I accepted this, the very day he left that empty space in my life. That no one else can refill. I wish it was easier for me to accept this to him then,things would have been so much different. Things would have been happier. It does feel vacant sometimes,like it was just him who could fill into that one right place,who could understand my mood swings before I could say,who could take me out on bike rides at any time of the day,who could listen to my silly stupid things on our long walks,who could scold me on not doing what mom said!
I am sure he’s happy. He’s doing all great. But I am again sure of the fact that he must have missed me at all the points in his life. We were special to each other. Always will be.
Just the fact that he and even I have moved too far in two very separate directions,there isn’t even scope for an interaction to clear the misunderstandings.
This one post is to HIM.
Isn’t it just too sad? Too sad to not to know the person anymore who once meant so much to you.
Not to have his phone number in your mobile when once you chatted all night.
Sad. I know.
Unlike me,there must be people in your life you can always get back to. DO THAT.
Because honestly,not everyone is meant to leave you,step out of your life,SOME OF THEM are definitely meant to stay. Hold on tight. It’s a never filling hole in your life once they leave. And trust me,your heart is just too stubborn to let anyone else in.
Love the people who love you,
And those who don’t,
MAKE THEM FALL.
Life is just too short to wait for someone to come back,you run to them!
In the end,
it doesn’t even matter who bent the ego down,
All that matters is,
You still have that person you never wanted to lose!